Monday, June 18

journey belongs to me :)

刚考完试,在等着下个旅行的同时,翻开旧照片,就做了这些。才发现,生命是如此的美好 :)
 Hatyai@2010

Sabah @2011

Bangkok Trip@2011

Singapore Universal Studio@2012

Beijing@2010

Bali@2009

Shanghai@2008

Cambodia@2012
Pulau Pangkor@2010



Pulau Ledang@2009

Penang@2010


Malacca@2011
Kuantan@2012

Next Trip--> Sabah+Taiwan :)

Thursday, May 31

what a night

On 31st may 2012,there's some unwanted,unhappy and unpleasure things happened.it's so scary night for me and i was insomnia for the whole night but thank god too cz nothing hurt me too :(

Around 1130pm, when i came back from mid Vally with cousin and sister from the mickey mouse exhibition,and trying my best to focus on study.Suddenly,i heard some noise under my window.For your information,my room actually face to jungle site and sometimes monkeys will come to visit our room :(

Ok, at first, i thought there must be some monkeys playing under my window and actually i saw some reflection through my window..So, i quickly stand up to close the window.When i stand up,OMG, i saw a guy hide under my window and he quickly stand up when he noticed i am looking at him.So,we eye to eye contact around 3-5 seconds,so u can imagine what happened to me right ? I was scream like hell!!! "arghhhhhhhh!!!!arghhhhh!!! pencuri!! pencuri!!!"...I am so sorry if i scared you in the mid night, BUT this is my reaction T.T

I thought he's coming to steal something or what ,so without think again,i close all my windows and open my door to run from my room,and it's surprise me whereby majority of floor mate or block mate came out to make sure what is actually happened, so we were just discuss and discussing there but without take any action on that guy and perhaps he had ran away that time too.Another malay resident come back from keeping her clothes and told us that she saw a guy ran away too,so for sure the guy i met is REAL human but not ghost right ?

Around 5 minutes, our Penyelia come to my block to visit me ,the first word he asked me is : Ni Hao Mah? means are you still ok in English.My respond was .."ermmm,so far so good" and start to explain what I saw bla bla bla...

That penyelia is super good and nice and quite concern about this issue too because another issue just happened on morning whereby around 6am++,a Malay girl wake up to pray and she met a guy too but I not really sure about what happened after that because some even said the guy follow her to toilet and etc.

The penyelia guide us to check what is actually happen around my window there and out of sudden we found a big lubang at tennis court there which believed is broken by that guy who observe us! It's was so scary and we even found that our toilets are not in safe situation whereby people can easily get into toilet via toilet's window.What the Hell ???After that we even check those empty room by room at Block B to make sure there's nobody hide inside the room.Our Penyelia did promised he will take some actions on it but i was wondering what kind of action will he take???

So,girls, especially to those staying in hostel ,Pls close your window or curtain and do contact police or your penyelia ASAP if you found something.Don't ever try to follow or catch him by yourself. Stay safe !

Friday, May 25

相信自己

曾经,有人问我,你通常怎样了解自己?
我回答:看别人怎样对我来了解自己。
她说:你很特别,可是我看到了些东西。


然后她做了些小小的雕塑,找人做了些例子。


"自信的反面是自卑,自信也是可以装出来的。
在武装自己时,一句肯定或是暗示可以让你很开心,也足以让你陷入谷底"


"这类型的人常常要人家告诉他怎么做”


“他们也希望人家看到他”




她说,相信自己,你可以的。


我 :逃离眼神


她又说:我发觉你这个小宝贝很特别,你会用尽一却来逃避。


现在的我,我想说,我想改变了,我不要活在别人的世界里,好累。


我会努力相信自己。摆脱以前的自己。

生命

享受生命,不一定要轰轰烈烈
不需要所谓的大房子,大车或者是大事业。。
听了以量空中的爱,突然觉得生命很可贵。
对,最初的感动才是你生命结束前最重要的。
就像分享里的个案,离开时,她不是要什么富贵,要得只是妈妈的花生糊。。那个最初的味道。如果不是个案哥哥勇敢的提出让妹妹再试一试,个案可能就会带着遗憾离开了。在她小时候,妈妈喂她,如今在快离开时,妈妈依然喂着她,同样的是喂着仿如小孩的她,但这回却是快去世的她。
生命真的很可贵,不要轻易就结束你的生命。
越来越多的人,选择了结束他们的生命,只因为爱情,功课。。
看到朋友的status,真的很有感触 。 "呼吁老师家长们,在告诉孩子如何好好读书的同时,请告诉他们如何好好活着!。。。同学们,生命不是单行道,而是充满无限可能的车站,此路不通,可以规划其他旅途,搭下一趟车,只有有耐心和努力,会是一趟精彩非凡的旅程!你有无限可能!" ..


虽然空中的分享和朋友的分享是那么的短暂。但,这深深的感动了我。

祝福大家,也祝福我自己。

Saturday, March 24

小小启发

我觉得自己好像变勇敢了,在学xx里,我找到了自己勇敢的一面,因为在那里,大家都抱着学习的态度,在那里,大家不是在炫耀,大家真的在学习。
其实我也不知到哪来的勇气,竟然敢在20人面前示范做一次面谈,虽然自己真的没能做的很好,也没有运用很多所谓的技巧或者原理,但那却是一段旅程的开始,有了第一步,我深信接下来会更好!
 在分享了最近遇到的瓶颈时,听了不少的意见,是的,我应该有自己的一套理念,一套想法,那就够了,不用和其他人argue或者什么,就像他们所说的,人家说什么我们听就好,自己过滤那些应该听应该做,凡事忍下,什么事都可以解决啦!有时身不由己是可以被原谅的!

Friday, March 23

我可以说我讨厌吗?

我可以说我讨厌这样的生活吗?这种一直被人家操控的生活。
上了大三,这种讨厌的感觉越来越深,我不喜欢这样的一个上课环境,我不是讨厌上课,不是排斥你们,我只是觉得你们很讨厌!
或许很多人都不能同理我这样的感受,但是如果你班上超过90%都是小马的话,你一定可以同理我。我真的不明白,为什么有那么多的不公平的存在。我完全连选和谁搭档做assignment的权利都没有,然后每天需要在课上听很多宗教观,come on,现在什么年代了为什么还要大家苟同你们那种想法?为什么时代在变,然后你们还活在以前?如果你们真的有那么虔诚,请不要交什么男朋友也请不要去什么约会!如果你们真的觉得自己成绩很好,课外活动也很好,那请多点apply 你的unconditional positive regard or empathy在别人身上,为别人想想。
我本来想说多三年了,何必还为你们生气呢?只是我真的不想忍了,你们说你们忙,group interview我来settle 没关系,我settle 了,你又来鸡婆找另个地方,你要我怎样去告诉人家我不去他的organization做research了?好,你说语言不通,没关系,我来interview ,我来做transcript好了,那你又说宗教不一样?fuck you!now you are taking cross cultural counseling but u cant interview or accept other religion? what the hell??你们到底懂什么叫虚有其表,虚有成绩是没用的吗?不是每天穿formal就代表你professional,不是上课问问题叫代表你有知识,不是参那些烂活动就叫你有经验好吗?

Tuesday, March 13

冯以量说 :


我想,這世界必須要有一间課室,叫做輔導室。那裏頭沒有對錯,也沒有審判。你可以卸下妝彩,聯結自己的真實。你可以脫下戯服,碰觸内心的醜陋。你可以揭開創傷,面對生命的脆弱。這裡是心靈的休息站,也是心靈的加油站。

你可以呐喊、害怕、懦弱、憤怒;你也可以盡情地哭、盡情地笑;最重要的是:你可以毫無保留地做回你自己,並且展現你自己。

在這裡,你和輔導員將會面對許多内心的掙扎、關係的衝突以及思考的衝擊。然而,這一連串互動的過程,將會促使你慢慢地長大……長大成爲一個更完整、更自在、更一致的人。

我说: 以量,你的文字真的很有力量!谢谢你 :)