旅。人

最近遇到了一个朋友，不算深交，但也认识了几年。这一次的相遇，让我对他，对旅行有了更深入的看法。我真的不得不觉得，缘分真的很奥妙，生命充满了惊喜，你永远不会知道天使什么时候会出现。

在谈话的过程中，我知道他刚流浪回来（流浪指的是放下包袱，工作和一切的一切，一个人出走），虽然只是短暂的流浪，但，天啊，这不都是我一直向往的自由吗？

和他谈了很多，他说，每年，他都会有自己的四次流浪出走，那是他给自己的礼物。他也很清楚自己出发的理想--就是充电和给自己休息。

听了这些后，我开始想，自己向往的自由到底是什么，背后的意义又是什么？如果什么都不清楚，那流浪的意义在哪？我想，我喜欢和人连接，发现新东西，这应该也是一点点想流浪的原因吧？

他说：人，到了不同阶段，就会有不同的想法。我很认同，也觉得自己的想法一直在改变。

他又说：这次的旅程，他突然感觉孤单了，一个人有时很寂寞。

这句话，又让我有更深的想法，是的，我追求自由，追求一个人，但我是不是更该珍惜现有的一切？

生命中总是会有这样的天使出现，让你启发。感恩。

谢谢你。

A visit to Xiao En Center

It's 22nd Dec, and according to Mayan, it will be doomsday but it seems not happen yet because i still able here to online and write this post.

Today was a very special day for me because it's my very first time learn about "life and death" especially in this meaningful day(doomsday) because 430 peoples from differences place gather here just to learn about it.Doomsday didn't happen and it simply explain that we born for second times right? So please do enjoy your life and make sure no regret for it.

Yeah, there's a seminar held by Xiao En and after the seminar we got the chance to visit Xiao En Center.

Yes, scary/dark/cold always comes to my mind when think about the place for funeral ceremony BUT it totally out of my expectation when comes to Xiao En.I was like "OMG, it just like a hotel/ballroom..!"

Here are some photos took from Xiao En Center..

Waiting place

another part of waiting place

chairs

So class!

So nice and class right and can you imaging that that's the place for funeral ceremony or related function but of course there's a multi function hall for seminar/workshop and talks.Besides that, Xiao En is providing grieve counseling service and it's first in Malaysia.And their counseling room just so nice..Seriously i never thought counseling rooms can be so nice and it comes with nice view from outside,soft music and aroma smell.Totally feeling so relax there.

counseling room 

counseling room

 Besides that, we got the chance to visit their gallery room ( not sure what they called the room) ..and there got a lot of coffins..It's my first time look at the coffins so some emotions did comes to me..I keep thinking about what will be and what's the feeling of lying inside the coffin..It still so scary but at least i overcome the fearful feeling after the visit.Is this explained that I can accept a little bit of death now?

White Coffins for Babies

Coffins

It cost rm88888..I dont get why it so expensive

Another rm88888 coffin 

The white coffin

Writing this post is not going to promote Xiao En Center or what but it just to share my experience of visiting there.It's not as scary as i thought before.

Be grateful and appreciate when you still alive .

New Journey

Time flies and it comes to my final week in UM (hope everything will go smooth as i thought)..
Seriously, i found myself still not really ready to enter another new journey-- my practical ...
You must be thinking and wondering where will me and my partner go for our practical right? 
yeah, we are going to practical at Institut Jantung Negara( IJN) and you must be wonder what will we do at there right?
Seriously, i am as blur as you all cause I got NO idea what will my practical be,what i have to do over there and so on.

I am not ready at all and still worried about my competency,my skills, my knowledge and so on.

I found myself so worried, stress and quite nervous even it will only start on Feb, next year.
I worried that i might can failed my subjects and make me cant go for practical,worried where to stay, how's the traffic condition from my house and etc..
I know i think too much already, BUT this is me.A girl who always live and cope with worries.
Now, i m trying my very best to cope with all the problems and worries then prepare myself to enter the journey and call myself "COUNSELOR".

Happy preparing girl.

小时候的我们

小时候的我们
什么也没有
没有iphone
没有ipad
没有LCD电视
但是
那时的我们
是最开心的
因为我们
不懂得比较
过的好幸福
好简单


我想念
小时候的我们

去年的今天

去年的今天，对我来说是个非常特别的一天
21位演员，21位舞蹈员在21号的这一天
我们共创了属于我们的缤纷迷你村
那是我第一年，第一次站在舞台上表演
台下来了好多朋友
因为那一次，我开始爱上了表演
我享受站在舞台上的感觉
并默默的许下承诺，
今年我一定要再次站上这个舞台

今年我成功通过试镜
又有机会站上这舞台
之前因为些原因
一直无法享受自己的角色
只剩五天
希望自己可以做到更好
好好享受
这属于自己的最后一次演出

加油，我对自己说。

自信，舞台就是你的。（戴晨志）

《 叶儿妈妈的自我剖析和成长—每个人都有心理伤痕 》

《 叶儿妈妈的自我剖析和成长—每个人都有心理伤痕 》 读后感

最近在网路上读了一篇又马来西亚生命线share出来的一篇文章--《 叶儿妈妈的自我剖析和成长—每个人都有心理伤痕 》

这是一位中国妈妈写的文章，她从原生家庭的伤害走出来了，写了这篇文章来说明这些伤害如何会影响孩子。文章雖然很長，但是值得花時間咀嚼思考。 有兴趣可以点击叶儿妈妈的自我剖析和成长。

在阅读这篇文章时，我是带着很多情绪的，有愤怒，有伤心，有难过和一些同情。

<原生家庭〉是每个人都有的，但却不是每个人都来自健康快乐的家庭。

虽然我的原生家庭也带给我很多伤害，我甚至会讨厌和责怪某些家庭成员，因为我总觉得是他们让我成为今天这样的我。

可是，辅导让我知道，原生家庭虽带给我们的伤害，但如果可以，我们可以面对我们内心的伤痕，化解对上一代的怨念，并阻断原生家庭对我们的负面影响继续往我们的下一代延续。

最近也让我理清一件事，当我责怪原生家庭带给我的伤害时，我的家人，他们也可能是受害者，他们也可能在原生家庭受伤，是受害者，只是他们不懂，因为他们没有这样的资源，但相比的，因为辅导让我更了解这些，所以，我是时候拿起这个责任了，好好想想自己应该拎起哪个责任。

虽然我不能改变些什么，但我相信，我有阻止这样的伤害延续到下一代的能力。

加油，我对自己说。

内在小孩在这时跑出来
它想要认同
它想要焦点
它想要被看到
它想要肯定
它有好多好多的期待